Another Manic Monday:)

Yeah, the day we all dread. Econs class is over, next is at 3 pm, with a test coming up. With the amount of time, I might as well give this place some life. Nope, no studying. Not yet:):)

My birthday has come and gone. I'm decades old now! How was it? Kinda okay, actually. In a different sense. There was no cake, no celebration (It was my sisters convocation, too, so we'll let her have it:)) But 80 wishes on fb? Now that's another personal best. Well I guess u can't win them all..... But eh. Walking around this place is kinda pleasing, but it'll be perfect if I had a companion. I've been getting dumped by my room mates again and again, so lets go solo. What a bad idea.

As my close friends know, I can't often speak my mind. In fact, I just can't seem to say it out. I'd go round and round and still fall short. So much for communication... And indecision. OMG. My biggest weakness.

Now why am I saying this? Lets say I was never good at expressing my affection towards someone, or even proving a simple point. I was never good at choosing the words to say in the 1st place. Sound familiar? Like father, like son, so they say... Acting it out is a different matter. Getting it noticed, then again, is a different thing. As much as of an observer as a actor as I am, it's saddening to see, how people can come to you and say: 'You should be doing this' Hey, hey, wait a second. Do you even know what I'm doing in the 1st place??

I just wanted to get this off my back. Over here, there is no one yet that I feel I can confide to. So here I am, confiding in my laptop, as I've always done. I'd always wanted to live a normal life, and hey, I'm almost there. but.... somethings missing.... What my heart wants to say, my tongue can't express....

In the bright daylight, the sun shines, yet people still get lost. If warring countries can become allies, why can't people who I've seen and befriended for years become even better friends? Is this what I should call a great failure? lolz. I don't know. maybe one day, I'll find the answer. For now, the observer retreats...

~Drownrat~