Another Manic Monday:)

Yeah, the day we all dread. Econs class is over, next is at 3 pm, with a test coming up. With the amount of time, I might as well give this place some life. Nope, no studying. Not yet:):)

My birthday has come and gone. I'm decades old now! How was it? Kinda okay, actually. In a different sense. There was no cake, no celebration (It was my sisters convocation, too, so we'll let her have it:)) But 80 wishes on fb? Now that's another personal best. Well I guess u can't win them all..... But eh. Walking around this place is kinda pleasing, but it'll be perfect if I had a companion. I've been getting dumped by my room mates again and again, so lets go solo. What a bad idea.

As my close friends know, I can't often speak my mind. In fact, I just can't seem to say it out. I'd go round and round and still fall short. So much for communication... And indecision. OMG. My biggest weakness.

Now why am I saying this? Lets say I was never good at expressing my affection towards someone, or even proving a simple point. I was never good at choosing the words to say in the 1st place. Sound familiar? Like father, like son, so they say... Acting it out is a different matter. Getting it noticed, then again, is a different thing. As much as of an observer as a actor as I am, it's saddening to see, how people can come to you and say: 'You should be doing this' Hey, hey, wait a second. Do you even know what I'm doing in the 1st place??

I just wanted to get this off my back. Over here, there is no one yet that I feel I can confide to. So here I am, confiding in my laptop, as I've always done. I'd always wanted to live a normal life, and hey, I'm almost there. but.... somethings missing.... What my heart wants to say, my tongue can't express....

In the bright daylight, the sun shines, yet people still get lost. If warring countries can become allies, why can't people who I've seen and befriended for years become even better friends? Is this what I should call a great failure? lolz. I don't know. maybe one day, I'll find the answer. For now, the observer retreats...

~Drownrat~

Reporting In!

Hey all,

Here I am reporting in from UPM Serdang! Finished the 1st class for the day, and no more classes until 2moro! :O My mind is kinda blank rite now, Juz got my Principles of economics results (finally) and I scored highest in the class. It wasn't a fantastic result, juz that the 1st-on-the-list thingie really scares me. Call it instinct. Personal instinct:)....

One more paper to collect... What happened to it?? For now, I'm focusing on the evening... Football again! And talking of football... I need to get myself sum food.... haha.

Oh, and For all my Form 6 juniors in STAR, Selamat menduduki peperiksaan. Good luck for ur trial exams, Jia you.. :):)

With those words, I sign myself off.... Take care everyone!

~drownrat~

P.S. Now, where should I eat??

After a Two Week Plus Hiatus...

After more than two weeks of inactivity, I start again:) Why so looonnnnngggg ????? Aiyo, Term break ma.... must enjoy.... :) But fat chance with that. Anyway... Anyone wants to know how term break went? err.... okayyy...

All in all there was SOME acheivements in the two weeks. I went for two movies, for instance. "What? get a life dude..." Sorry 2 disappoint you, but I AM getting a life, especially if you consider that I've been to the cinema like, 10 times? Don't faint. I'm sure I mentioned this earlier...

Other than the sweet, SWEET meetings with my close friends, there really isnt anything else worth mentioning here. Its same old mundane life, stay at home Fb-ing my time away....

When I first left for uni, It was with mixed feelings. I said this a few posts ago. But I didn't really know what I left behind, besides friends I could barely even see. But now I know... I also left someone else, someone more than a friend. I left behind a person whom I really cherished, and spoke to more than I did than with my own sister.

Who is she?? *EHEM* That's for me to know.... But In a way, I'm through doubting. I'm through denying my own feelings. Even if it's thrown back at me, my conscience is clear... As my head.

This friday is my birthday, and my sister's convocation. She's graduating with a diploma in Mass Communications. A double celebration, and I know my wish before the day even comes. I keep waiting....

So back to far far away, and I fade away into deep silence.... bye....

~Drownrat~